My attitude was a little sloppy. Mostly in 2004. I was eighteen and I was lonely and I felt abandoned and disliked by people who meant everything to me. I can sympathize, but I wish I'd contained my anger better. The swearing was a bit out-of-hand as well. Which isn't something I've completely overcome but I have a tad more self-control now. Oh well. We live around eachother and we are all wiser than we were.

Life is okay.

Listened to "Everlong". The song I touted as my ideal feeling to have in a romantic relationship. There's still something about it, but I wonder what all of that wish is left. ...

I'm about to be a mother.
I love somebody I'm not sure about marrying.

And I just want this all to turn out the right way. How God intends. Because I'm sure that's what's best for everyone anyway. And myself.

But I just need to know what that is.

I love my family.
Mommy I love you.
And furry kitty.

Liz, Justin. My best friends.